Why Did I Listen? 4-26-09

You scream your lies
And whisper the truth
Don’t tell me what I want to hear
Just tell me how you really feel
….You killed me.

You Made Me Incapable. 4-22-09

I want to scream,
I am just silent.

I want to sleep,
I am just awake.

I want to bleed,
I am just sealed.

I want to eat,
I am just ashamed.

I want to cry,
I am just unshed.

I want to write,
I am just wordless.

I want to love,
I am just loathing.

I want to trust,
I am just scared.

I want to lie,
I am just honest.

I want to see,
I am just unaware.

I want to know,
I am just naïve.

I want to feel,
I am just numb.

I want to wish,
I am just hopeless.

I want to dream,
I am just stuck.

I want to matter,
I am just worthless.

Plastic Knives. 4-11-09

I’m becoming unhinged
Unglued
Ripped apart from the seams
Shredded
Torn
Used
Wasted I can’t control it anymore
I can’t make it stop
I have no will
I have no sense
I just need it
Nothing can stop me
No more hinges
No strings attached
They’re all gone
Gone like the tubes
That were keeping me alive
So this is goodbye