You Made Me Incapable. 4-22-09

I want to scream,
I am just silent.

I want to sleep,
I am just awake.

I want to bleed,
I am just sealed.

I want to eat,
I am just ashamed.

I want to cry,
I am just unshed.

I want to write,
I am just wordless.

I want to love,
I am just loathing.

I want to trust,
I am just scared.

I want to lie,
I am just honest.

I want to see,
I am just unaware.

I want to know,
I am just naïve.

I want to feel,
I am just numb.

I want to wish,
I am just hopeless.

I want to dream,
I am just stuck.

I want to matter,
I am just worthless.